Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Nicole Morris
Nicole Morris

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